This could be a long post

First off I want to share what we did today. Austin has minimum day this week and we were able to go over to Disneyland to see all the great decorations! I don't think I've ever been during this time. I always manage to go right before or right after. We had a great time. We met up with Jenn who signed us in. Thank you bunches! And not only for that....the compassion and understanding you have for what is currently going on with my grandma. Then I met up with an old friend and her three boys. I'm really glad I did this. There had been some time that has lapsed in our friendship and though it is hard to mend old wounds, we realized there was just a huge misunderstanding. We sat in bugsland and just talked it out. Cleared the air, and had a few tears. It felt wonderful. And it was like we picked up right where we left off. I'm looking forward to the growth of this rekindled friendship.




My Grandma. Well it's not good. She is still trying to recover from her surgery. I don't know if her quality of life will ever be the same. She was told on Monday that the chemo treatment that they could do would only give her about a 15% chance of working and all it would do is give her a little more time. There is a second one, but unfortunately she needs to be 100% from the surgery and she's far from that and it would only work about 35%. Next week Monday I'm driving out there and spending the week taking care of her. We're all taking turns. My mom, aunt, uncle, cousins and even my sister flies in in November. It's just heart wrenching. Today I had a counseling appointment~it's really to help her with Austin and what needs to be worked on, but this one I had to talk about my grandma. I had to cancel a few because of being out there. So she asked if I had told my grandma what I love about her and what I will cherish. No, I hadn't. I know it sounds easy, but you just want to be so upbeat that you don't want to be too melancholy. So she said to write it down and tell her next week. I will do this. As hard as it may be, I need to tell her.


There's a party in my tummy! Check out the Yo Gabba Gabba shirt I found at Wal-Mart! A whole $7! Zach loooooves Brobee.




This weekend is the Spooktacular Crop at the Bee. I bought this book to make his chili for it. If I really had MORE time, I would make his Chocolate Smores Bread Pudding. His stuff is EASY! I'm all about simplicity!





I'm also looking forward to going to Ontario Expo for a few hours
Friday morning. I so hope to find this! Please, please someone have it in stock! And I'm hoping they are there. Ok, I need to go to bed. I'm over tired and have tired cried out eyes. I think I cried three times today. Once at counseling, once when Jenn & talked and then with Jamie. Man I'm a big blubbering mess! Goodnight!